neither here, nor there.

Ever get into those kinds of moods where nothing really excites you or pisses you off? yeah. that's me right now. neither here, nor there. i suppose that's better than being far off in la-la land, or being caught up in a bunch of BS that will do me no good.

i miss you grandpa.
I had a dream about him last night...i can't remember if he was sick or well. something tells me that he wasn't well. he's got such a cute laugh. =) what a fabulous man - served in the army, owned his own (innovative) business, married the best woman in the world and raised 4 incredible men. taught us all to work hard to get what we want. and now here he is...such an accomplished man with nothing but a victorious past, struggling to remember what he had for lunch. he's reverting back to a child and it's driving my grandma mad. she's only mad because she's sad. they've been together for 64 years (but have known each other since childhood) and she's always been the glue, but now she's the glue not by choice.  my grandparents have 4 boys, with 7 grandchildren, and 7 great-grandchildren.  What a family I have. I'm so lucky...

Sometimes all you have to do is write your feelings (or lack thereof) down and things will change. I went from feeling blah, to feeling loved, grateful, and beholden.

What or who makes you feel loved?  To whom are you beholden?

SAS

Here's a pic of my darling cousin Stef and my fabulously dapper Grandpa Stephens!